|The beautiful orchid Miles gave me for Valentines day. If I can keep this one from going tits up, I'd like to start a collection.|
I can feel it. Our non-winter ebbs... the sun returns, balmy breezes caress, snow pack softens beneath foot and skis, the birdsong changes... Its surreal this time around, though. After a season of very little snowfall drama, part of me still awaits our winter. Internal Spring approaches as well. I get spurts of creativity interspersed with daily routine, and the strong desire to act...if only that daily routine would yield and offer more time. At the RIGHT time. I THRIVE on those demiurgic pushes and am hoping they come more often as the sky brightens and the warmth allows me my outside art studio once again. I do my best work out there...
I mentioned in a previous post the urge to spend time in daily meditation. I KNOW my outer world will flourish even more if I can calm, redirect, and tidy up my inner world. It's SO hard for me. But I think I'm too hard on myself....expectations are too high. "They" say if I could start with just 5 minutes of deep breathing and being award of my thoughts, I'm off to a good start. I tend to say,aw FUCK it, when I can't go deep for 30 minutes and come out of it with something... So I skip it more often then not. Plus, it's so hard to sit out there on my lovely cushions in that fantastic conduit which is our new space...and not have distractions. The cat wanting lovin's, my husband searching music for his radio show, Willa playing. But. There simply can be no unfolding if I don't put in the effort. FIVE minutes. Years ago someone told me, "YOU MUST take the first steps in any evolution in life ....with bravery, dedication and intent. It's a waste of time to wait for something to fall into your lap. Only then, will the Universe stand with you and be of great help in manifesting what you need." I have found this to be infinitely true.
"In the beginning you will fall into the gaps between thoughts. -After practicing for years, you become the gap." ~J. Klaykamp
In the physical, I have been experiencing heavy periods and exhaustion in the last 3 months. But the energy I feel the rest of the month is intense! After that 2 month period of doing no lower body exercise due to my ITBS, I have slowly gained strength and started running again. I am now at the point where I was physically last fall and I am SO ready to take it all to the next level. Training to beat last years race times, giving my bodybuilding routine an over-haul, and tightening up my nutrition....I'm stoked to see where I will be taking myself!
Our home continues it's metamorphosis.....the new addition is finished. We're hoping to have the rest of the house finished by May! It's a new world in here....